Giving it to God

I finally did it guys. If you have read my “about me” you will know that for years now I have struggled with allowing myself to sometimes eat not so healthy. I have been on extremely strict diet plans, that involved obsessively weighing out food on scales, and eating the same thing every single day. It involved working out at 4 am, and NEVER EVER missing a workout, even if I was sick. Mr.Foodfaithfitness and I went to Portland over the weekend…and it was so nice to not be on “a plan!” I even ate donuts, grilled cheese sandwiches, a couple adult beverages and chocolate peanut butter waffles all on one day…and didn’t get obese over night, like I always fear I would. So, I decided it’s time to stop trying to control my body and life by my food plan, and to take a step out in faith and give it to God. I haven’t been living the full, abundant life that He wants for me because of my food issues, and it is time to give it to him. I no longer want having a “perfect body” to be my idol, as I want the center point of my life to be the Lord. I want to be able to enjoy food and social gatherings with the hubs, and for them not to be a fearful event. So, I have gone off my plan. I have done it before, gotten scared, and gone back on…but, not this time. This time I won’t do that. I am going to learn to eat mindfully and intuitively. Don’t get me wrong, I am still going to be super duper health conscious, and exercise very regularly…but, I am going to work on allowing some room for cheesecake :). It will be really scary for me, but I am going to learn to not rely on myself, as I can’t do it on my own. I can only do it with the Lord’s help. Anyway, like I’ve said before, I want this blog to be real. I want you guys to know my struggles with food and be there as I try to learn how to walk in faith. I think it is so easy to feel like you’re alone in your struggles, so I want to help anyone know that they aren’t as alone as they feel! I know these posts aren’t as fun as recipes, but sometimes I gotta get a little serious over here at FFF y’all.